I need to get myself together not because I need to make anyone proud or vindicate myself but because I really need to change. Truth is I haven't changed. I've been selfish, immature, all vulgar. I need to do this for myself. Not for you, not for anybody, just me.

I'm not drunk or sedated or on anything. I'm just starting to see things a little clearer.

Maybe I'm starting to find that change I've been looking for. Wish me luck.

Sorry for the rant.